I often wonder why it is that we remember some dreams and not others. Dreams leave us mesmerized and often confused. Do you believe we dream more when we’re trying to conceive? I definitely do. I once got a visit in my dream about my Angel baby Reina. Why is it that we get visited by those we miss most?
I was so thrilled when I woke up after what felt like a real moment. In reality, it was probably like a 2-minute dream but it was enough for me. I obviously was starstruck. I got to hold my baby for the first time. Now it could have been a vision of a rainbow baby but I would like to stick to the idea of my Angel baby visiting me in my dream.
You know what’s funny I didn’t even see her face. The actual weight that was pressed against me in my folded arm was enough. I could feel her presence and a tiny whiff of baby. There was nothing overwhelming about it. In retrospect, I could have wrote it down in a journal somewhere.
Are you curious if this visitation is somewhat crazy? Or delusional? I don’t think so. If you’ve experienced this, know that you’re only blessed. There are only few who get to remember their dreams let alone get the chance to relive it just by talking about it.
I think it’s only amazing if your baby visits you from Heaven.
“NOTHING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING hurts like the ache of never getting to hold you.” -Zoe Clark-Coates
This quote reminds me of all the mom’s out there, the pain, the silence. It reminds me of what we all are missing. The separation anxiety when you get to see another bundle of joy being held by their mom. What it would feel like to have that, right now. You feel you can list the things you would give just to hold that baby one time.
Our unconscious mind works miracles. I believe if you envision holding your unborn baby enough you may get a visit from someone you hold dearly in your own heart. Let me know if this has happened to you. It can constantly be this battle for sure.
Some would say ‘Phebe, I don’t want to envision that, it bring me hurt and flashbacks’, I understand that too. I can’t explain how happy I was and I wish I could bottle little pieces of that happiness and send it to all you mamas going through it.
Please know that we all deal with loss separately, and in our own way. I only come from a place of understanding and no judgement whatsoever. I’m happy you stumbled upon this post because you’re looking for ‘normal’. You’re looking to see if you’re the only one who wishes for a small dream of your Angel. You’re looking to see if it’s possible to have this happen. It can.
Pull out a pen and write down how this would make you feel. How would you react? Good? Bad? Either way, it’s healthy to jot it down. I like to keep a journal now. Because truth be told there will be a moment in your time that you’re not going to want to remember some of these feelings and then at some point you will look back and healthily say, I remember those emotions and they were strong and they were REAL.